I don't think I literally need a bucket, right?

I've heard about people making something called a "bucket list", a list of things to do before they die. I've heard it's suppose to be about 100 things. Given more recent events I've decided to try and make one. Not a list of 100 things though. Truth is I had trouble coming up with 12! So why make one and put it on my blog? Well, I think part of me feels like if I put it one here I'll be more tied to it. I've always had these ideas in my head I guess not I'm just putting it down in writing. So... one would think that I would know how to do this haha but I don't. I don't really have them in any particular order...are they suppose to be? Oi...what a mess haha. So, at this point in my life I really have these 12 main goals. I guess as time goes on more may develop. I think they will. I do have this book titled 1000 Things to See before you Die. It's a good book but holy hell unrealistic bucket list! See there is a danger with that list...a 1000 things! who the heck has all the money for that? Not to mention isnt there a danger with trying to accomplish 1000 things? I guess one may spend their time trying to get 1000 things done insteas of thouroughly experiencing certain things...and yes its a book with quite a few good ideas but why would I live someone elses bucket list?

 This being said... here is my bucket list...not 100 long, or in any particular order.... ha.

1. African Safari - I've always had a love for animals and nature and one continent that truly is beautiful and known for both is Africa. Plus that continent has a mysticism to it, despite the unfortunate circumstances that plague the countries within.

2. Master Yoga - I love yoga, it provides me with a wonderful peace and serenity within my own body. I'd love to become almost flawless in practice.

3. Spend a month living in an old Irish castle. They have them to rent you know?  And really not as expensive as you might think. :)

4. Write a book. Not sure on what yet... but like I said in my first blog....I have things to say :D

5. Get on stage and sing. See, I can sing, pretty well, I just have horrendous stage fright.

6. Start a charity of some sort. I like helping people and I think it would be great to create an organization to do so.

7. Travel to see the Pyramids of Giza - I've always had a fascination with Ancient Egypt and being a history major how could I not go see the place I've been drawn to since childhood?

8. Piggybacking on Egypt and Historical themes I'd like to become fluent in

• Ancient Egyptian Hieroglyphs
• Arabic
• French
• German

I have a feeling this one will be a constant thing to tackle through my life.

9. Travel to see the ruins of the Mesoamerican Civilizations.

10. Master the bow & arrow and sniper rifle....what? I like weapons..besides I'm a Sagittarius, really I should know the bow and arrow hehe.

11. Invest in an historical home (obv to live in) that I can fix up and restore. I love old homes they feel real, lived in, with substance. They have their own personalities.

12. Have two large beautiful gardens, one for flowers and one for vegetables. There's nothing like growing your own food. Plus it's cheaper :)

I'm sure in time I may add things but for now I think those are some wonderful things to look forward to.

Life on the Borderline

hmmm.... so I've decided to jump on the blog bandwagon for a few reasons;

1. I'm at a point in my life where I'm doing a lot of growing, I'm learning life lessons, skills and things about myself that I never thought I would. I would like to share it in a place where it's impossible to be interrupted mid-sentence...well unless my computer crashes in which case some of my newly learned skills will come in handy.
2. I like to write, writing has always been good to me... I can see my thoughts and this is quite beneficial to someone who has had more than the recommended encounters with foot-in-mouth syndrome.
3. Its nice to see how people think, feel and express themselves in a world slowly being overcome by such hustle and bustle. If you think about the past few weeks, days even....can you tell them apart? Or are they all smooshed together like one big day...i.e...alarm goes off, you shower, get dressed, check fb on your smartphone, drive to grab your coffee, curse traffic, arrive at work or school, sigh through the day, eat lunch, feel guilty about whatever choice you made for lunch, drive home....again cursing traffic and the traffic jams and wondering where all those cars miraculously go when the traffic opens...get home...exhausted...eat again, perhaps have the pleasure of seeing loved ones...again check facebook, dread the following day, sleep, AND repeat. Sometimes we have the pleasure of looking forward to a trip or get together and that's wonderful however I'm slowly realizing that one day if I'm blessed enough to make it to old age I don't want to look back and see one...long...smooshed day with sprinkles of fun. I don't want to spend time at jobs I despise, I don't want stress from traffic to take years off my life and I don't want spend my time obsessing over past events or worrying about the future. Why? because I can't live there, I can't go back and I can't catapult into the future. I can live now, in this moment. 

So - this blog is about my moments on the borderline of balancing life in a material world and life in a spiritual one. On the borderline of insanity from the material world and trying to escape into a world of bliss. I've always been one to challenge and question in my own way and I'll do that here. I'm going to push and question my way through this life sharing my lessons and my distress and hoping to not fall into the material monotony that so many of us fall prey to.

By the way- Yes, I believe in grammar. Yes,  I know proper grammar. However, there are many times I just chose not to use it. Why? Because life isn't about punctuation.